I’m really pissed off!
I can’t wait to pick up the phone and blast the witch. Giving her a piece of my mind will be so satisfying. Just wait until she picks up her bloody phone, (if she does, which would be a miracle anyway.)
I scroll down my contacts and press the green icon. As I gather my anger to let loose, a little voice in my head says, “Wait.”
I jab at the red dot and slam my phone down. In this age of instant gratification, I don’t need these philosophical questions. But they persist…
Is this true? (Or is it my version? )
My friend told me exactly what happened. I believe her, of course. But is it the whole truth? Perhaps there is another side to the story. I could make sure first, ask someone else who was there at the time, verify the facts… I pick up the phone, when another thought creeps in…
Is this kind?
I am about to destroy this person. She’ll never, ever open her mouth again. Do I actually want to do this? Let words into the ether that I can never take back? Am I being kind…or unkind? I fiddle with my Apple-5 and hover my finger over the dial icon.
Is this necessary?
What I am about to say is true, (in my mind.) But is it absolutely necessary? What would happen if I chose not to say it and seriously, Will it change anything?
Am I about to diminish her, just to make myself feel great?
Is what I am about to say going to make me feel awesome? Is it also going to diminish her? What does this say about me? I put the phone down and head for the kettle. Perhaps it’s time to close down that other little voice in my head, once and for all.
Or is it?